So, we have reached a point where it's time for me to think about going back to work. This is such a heavy decision for me and in a lot of ways it is going to completely change our lives.
Penelope will be almost 16 months when I go back. Up until that point, the longest that I have been away from her while she has been awake is maybe 3 hours. I am so anxious about this change for both of us. Luckily, I have a really great friend who runs a home daycare, and I know Penny will be in good hands with her. I am sure that the transition will go smoother than I am imagining in my head, at least for her. I fear that I am going to be a mess. Starting a new job, and being without my girl for the first time in her life is going to throw me for a loop.
But, me bringing in some extra money will make a big difference to our family. We will be able to use that money for extras, since that just really isn't in the budget with one income. We can look into buying a house and getting Nick's business off the ground. We will be able to go out and do things with Penny this winter that we otherwise wouldn't be able to do. We can travel a little and go see my family who are all far away. We won't have to stress about every dollar we spend. And, selfishly, I can get some new clothes!
I am also still breastfeeding, and I am not really sure how to tackle that part. She currently nurses a lot in the morning, before naps, before bed, and any other time she might ask for it. We are going to be limited to nursing in the morning and after work now. I know we will adjust, and that it's only going to decrease the older she gets, so I am alright with that.
All in all, I am excited to get back to work (assuming that I do get hired). I think the social and brain stimulation will be good for me. I know that it will make me a happier wife. Now, here is hoping that I can find a position with the right kind of schedule and pay!